I launched this website with a writing challenge early in the month of May. I will not say that it was not a good idea, but I probably should have started myself off a little smaller, and then built myself up to a longer challenge later, like the 30 Day one, after shorter challenges were completed.
It did not help when writer's block was sitting on my chest like a bad cold. Talk about spreading oneself too thin. Something I will try to work at.
Essentially, the purpose of the challenge was to see if I could complete the challenge and overcome writer's block.
I did complete one of the goals I set for myself, writer's block. When (not if) I get it again, I know that a random prompt challenge definitely helps.
As writers and creators, we all experience it and many experience it more than once. We come to this point in our creative lives when we cannot think of any ideas. Or if we do, it hardly compares to the work we have created prior to the block.
When it happens to me, my brain usually comes up with two conclusions; 1.) take a break and go see the world or 2.) maybe this idea was not the write idea. (See what I did there?).
Now, the first conclusion is one that I often repeat. I go on a ride or to a place I have not been to in town. Sometimes it works. Other times… not so much. I usually find myself wrapped in a warm blanket in a freezing cold room trying to figure out what I could do different.
The way my brain finds a way out of a creative rut is to find a creative way out of the rut. Saying it out loud, I know it does not make any sense, but I cannot complain if it makes perfect sense in my head. I just go for it.
WHAT DID NOT WORK?
Now, while getting rid of writer's block worked, completing the challenge did not.
I should have done more than write down the prompts and attempt to write them each day. I definitely should have looked a little better at what I was able to do time wise because not only was I not able to complete the challenge, but I also was unable to submit the posts on time.
Next time I decide to challenge myself, I will definitely look into my schedule and make sure it is something I can do at that time without any setbacks. I will also make sure I set the standard a little bit lower, seeing as I am just starting out with blogging and building my brand as an artist. Limiting myself is something that I have never been very good at, but I think starting the practice now is better than never.
MY TAKEAWAY FROM THE FLOP
I am proud that I was able to achieve something, even if it was not the entire challenge. As someone at the start of building my own brand as an artist, it is a great thing to learn about the things I can do and things that may come off a little more difficult. That goes for anyone creating their own brand.
I am always afraid to do things in the open because do not like the feeling of failure. It is not a feeling that sits well within myself, especially if it is public.
But failure is not something to be afraid of or even ashamed of. How else am I supposed to know what works for me or what does not?
When I realized that I had already started failing this challenged (a challenge I created for myself by myself), I thought about not posting anything again. I thought about trying to catch up to where I am supposed to be. I even thought about deleting the whole challenge. But what good would that have done?
The best thing I could have done is what I am doing now, reflecting. I am not a very social person, more so online than in person, but it feels good to acknowledge my failures and know that people still stand behind my art.
Because of that, I do want to do more blogging and become more interactive with social media. It will not be easy and it will not happen overnight, but it is in progress.
A WORD TO MY READERS
Special thanks to those who read my stories. If you liked them, send some love in the comments below. Let me know which one(s) were your favorite.
I do plan to post more frequently than I do now. At the moment, I cannot promise everyday, but I do want to get at least one in a week. Whether it's a story or art or a movie/TV review (which I plan to do), I will do my best to get something posted. Make sure you subscribe to the blog and signup for an account.
"Remember your dreams and fight for them. You must know what you want from life. There is just one thing that makes your dream become impossible: the fear of failure."
- Paulo Coelho